Giving up

Giving up is like admitting defeat. But you need to know when to let go to avoid hurting yourself or making a fool of yourself. Some may call it a tool to protect one's own fragile mind, but there is no denying that it is what it is. Defeat. Although you could say sometimes that it is an honorable defeat? When you know you have to let go, and you actually do let go. Suffer the pain, and quietly lick your wounds.

Giving up..... Its basically Self Preservation ("SP"). Such is life. I have recently reverted into the SP stage, and I begin to somewhat understand why I am such a workaholic. At least work in some sense pays off. If not monetary wise. At least in some ways job satisfaction wise. I feel. And it is an excuse that people don't often question. A good escape?

My SP is the typical escape of somewhat immersing myself in work. While I am concentrating on something. I do not have the time to think about something else. It's a pathetic attempt to avoid reality. But in some sense it is a profitable one, if you get my drift.

At times I wonder why I've to enter this SP stage, and I know. Cause life is no box of chocolates. Neither am I so lucky. So time and time again, I go through this tribulation.

It's tiring and I wonder, when will I give up on that too....

-ケイ-