Thinking Back...

I wonder if you could be considered my first love?

It's been more than 10 years and from time to time you still invade my mind.

Are you someone who slipped away or did I really love you?

It may be embarrassing that someone my age still doesn't know what love between a man and a woman is.

So I sit and think, is what I feel or perhaps felt for you love?

The Love between a man and a woman?

But I am unsure, what this feeling is.

I remember crying the last time I saw you.

You were with someone else.

I just felt sad, but I wasn't sure if it was because of you.

Sometimes I feel like I missed out.

If we had acted differently then, what would now be like?

From your actions then I guess we could safely say that our feelings was mutual, was it not.

I guess maybe you are my regret?

Is that why I still remember you even now?

If I had not let go of your hand at that time, what would have happened?

If I had asked to be left alone with you that night, would we have talked and would things have been different?

Could we still be happily together now?

At random times, I still think of you, whereas I'm sure you have forgotten about me.

Totally and completely.

I feel that is so unfair.

That I am suffering alone.

But I can't help myself, no matter how one sided this is, I don't know what to do.

Although I've not seen you for years, I still think of you, that's why thinking back, I wonder, are you my First Love, The One That Got Away, or My Regret?


-夢見ケイ-