Well....

Today my dad in his irritation with me of not bothering to keep track of my finances or more like the number if bank accounts he has, those joint ones with me for emergencies in case something happens to my parents said. 

"Giving birth to me was useless"

Huh, well i know he was just speaking without thinking but it still wasn't very nice to hear. And it makes me feel sad. 

Honestly in my own house I feel like I'm staying at a homestay of some sort. The allowance I pay being my lodging fee. It's a very nice homestay though. 

If you bring your laundry down to the laundry room, it will get done. Meals are prepared for you, if you are around to partake in them. 

But cleaning your own room is your responsibility, yes please vacuum, mop and dust your own room please. 

Internet, water and electricity is all provided. Sounds like a great place for the "price" you pay. 

But what makes it home and not a homestay is the warmth you get from it. Like take yesterday for example dad cooked dinner early on purpose for me as I had to go out for class. 

The piano is always tuned even though I don't play it much anymore. That's what makes it home. And I guess that's one of the reasons I plough through to get through another day and go on living and to keep looking for that silver lining. 

-ケイ-