You still affect me

By right this year would mark the tenth year since I last saw you, I think. I recently heard that you are now working overseas. Whether you will come back, it's not something I'm privy to...

And even though I've not seen you for a decade. Even though I have absolutely no idea how you look like now, or how you act now, in fact you could even say that i don't even know you now. Not like I knew you very well ten years ago...

Yet every time your birthday comes along and I remember. Every time a common friend or acquaintance of ours mention you. I realized that you still affect me. 

And that is so damned unfair. 

Please let me go. I've done what I can to let you go, now I need you to let go... And you know what? I bet you would answer, "I was never holding on to you in the first place"...

How does one fully let go? Sigh

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