Here's the truth

Here's the truth. The reason why I work so much is because I feel that my family and most of my friends are not worth my time and that I get more stressed our and heartache by hanging out with them that I rather be alone. But being alone at home is not an option. So I rather work.

Thinking about it I've never been happy since childhood. She. I was a child I was always fruit a d miserable. I felt like running away from home a few times. What child thinks of running away? That is me. I try so hard to please my family yet I'm just like the 'back up' sacrificial lamb that they only treat nicely at their convenience.

They dare ask why I'm rude? Look at the way you guys talk to me. Only lately you are using politeness. Just cause you come back once a year doesn't make you royalty. In fact the kid that is Stuck with the parents should be treated better. But no. No appreciation.

Family or not I'm fed up. Friends aren't any better. What is the point. Life is so meaningless.

On a separate note. I caught a glimpse of the movie the bridesmaid on the tellie. The two best friends were fighting and by god. My sister acts exactly as d girl that made the screw up. Felt so dumb blonde when I saw it.

I wish I could just cut all ties with everyone. And this isn't the first time I've felt this way

悲しい

Yea pursuant to the post below I do Live a very sad life. Friends always think I'm so happy go lucky. Family, has already Been mentioned. Such a fun life I lead. That's the reason why I prefer to work than socialize or stay at home.

狡い

みんなはとてもずるいですね？

To my family. You guys are all so sly. You complain that I don't talk. One of you; You're bitter for so long proving me right when I said you were bitter. And yet being the hypocrite you are. You have the nerve to ask me to let go.

Well this is me letting go by bitching bout it. If that is Being bitter to you than please look up a dictionary. I don't hold things in from years ago to a point where I detest whoever was the cause of the problem and act like the world owes me Something.

You have been Away for so long and selfishly engrossed with your own problems that you don't know what is going on at All with mine. I'm just letting you know that I haven't been living as peachy a life as you thought I had been all this while. Best part is, you have the nerve to use what I said before that against me. I may be female but females are really hard to handle.

But don't worry its not only you that I shut out. It's pathetic but I just can't trust family you guys are all so sly or wouldn't give two hoots about my situation.

You ask me to talk yet you do not listen. You ask me to let to which I do by talking bout it and you say I shldnt be so bitchy and whiny. And you ask me why I don't talk???

Hahaha very funny

I have a great family that takes me for granted doesn't care bout my feelings nor my well being. Knows only how to nag and scold me but never to understand my situation. They have one of the worse pr skills that I have ever known.

For so many years I have been keeping quite and letting you have your way. So naturally you are not used to it when I start talking back. Well just deal with it As I had been for so many years.

Thank you very much. To my so called Loving family that doesn't give a damn about me and what I want.